It scares me that I can't remember the last time I was 100% completely and truly happy with all my being....

The year that changes everything.......

Huh, well 3 months in and nothing's changed. I'm still lonely, still fed up, still lost and confused, still joint owner of a house with my ex, still being stalked by bad luck....

Everyone keeps saying that life has its ups and downs, and that the ups will come eventually. But I just don't see it. It's just down after down after down. The second I start to feel happy something goes wrong.

I've been patient, I've been hopeful and most of all I've been strong. I've dealt with everything you've thrown at me and I'm still standing! Why after everything are you still making me prove myself?

When is it my turn?